Just moi

Just want to make it known that I will NOT shut up no matter how much people try to shut me up. Especially men and their tiny dicks and massive egos...go fuck yourselves. Just because you feel threatned by me because I'm not here to please you like every other girl does not give you a right to name call and attack me. I've had enough of being the door mat that everyone feels entitled to walk all over. I will NOT permit this to happen again and again. Not any more. If I have an opinion I will express it wether it causes offense to others or not. I don't care! I have a mind and I'll use it. I have a voice and I'll use it if you don't like it, you don't have to listen. And I definitly am not looking to be best friend's with everyone. If you want to listen to my truth, great...if not that's your loss NOT mine. I know I'm worth getting to know, that I'm a loyal, kind and understanding friend. If others don't see it that's their fucking problem not mine. I'm finally realizing this...I'm my own person. Not like everyone else and there's NOTHING wrong with that. I don't want to like other people anyway because their selfish, judgemental and cynical behaviour disgusts me.

NOW Magazine // News // The skinny on what’s eating us

NOW Magazine // News // The skinny on what’s eating us

Food For Thought

There's been a lot of discussion going on about diets and healty eating so I thought I'd include the article below. It's about how government policy has a big influence on what we eat and the current health crisis we have (obesity, diabetes, etc). Very well written..it was published last week in a local alternative paper. I also saw the documentary "Food Inc" last night and to be honest, it gave me nightmares! It was'nt just seeing animals getting tortured and slaughtered although that was definitly part of it. What also scared me was how much government and the agriculture industry (which consists of just a half a dozen of corporations) controls the fod system and what we eat on daily basis. It's terrifying to know that so much power is given to selfish individuals who only have their own best interests in mind. There was a story about a mother who lost her child to E-coli and is now trying to get a bill passed to prevent this from happening to other people. You can't geuss how difficult that's been...she has'nt even received an apology from the company that is responsible for poisoning and killing her son. It's so tragic and it just highlights the fact that you can't trust anyone but yourself, especially when it comes to issues like health and nutrition. You can't most of the bullshit that's out there because it's sponsored by industry. It's like I read in "Skinny Bitch" (great book) know what the facts are and make up your own mind. Use your head and don't just go along with what they tell you to believe.Honestly, I would not be surprised if the agenda of the ruling class is to keep people stupid and fat. Because that's exactly what they're accomplishing. With government subsidies for junk food and a mediocre educational system. Actually mediocre is putting it nicely...I did'nt learn fuck all in school. Pretty much all of my knowledge has come from doing my own research, my own reading and my own will to do so. I think it's worth it to not be an ignorant ass. School seems designed to do this because they try to kill your curiousity and thirst for real education. Don't let that happen and stop eating garbage. I may not have all the answers but I just know that's part of the solution to this messed up society.

Go to: http://www.nowtoronto.com/news/story.cfm?content=173535&archive=29,23,2010

Moving On..

Damn! I have good taste! Look at all this cool shit... : P

Yeah...you notice any themes?

Close up of the Mr.J shrine...he's a happy guy! Well, just look at that girl right above him!

I'm moving out soon...so I'm posting these photos of my bedroom as it is now. I don't care if anyone else sees since it's not going to exist anymore. I've had to move from one place to another so many times it's insane. Might as well keep a record of it from now..so if I ever get to be old and senile, I'll remember what it looked like.

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Hell at Home

So fucking tired right now...both literally and in every other fucking way. I feel like I need to sleep another 10 hours. But I can't because I'll start thinking about all my fucked up problems. Mainly the asshole who lives in the same house that I do. Yes, my mom's boyfriend Humberto..I've written about this dickhead before becuase he's always providing problems in my life. How nice.
I don't know what to do anymore..I had a job interview today and I royally fucked that up because I could'nt concetrate. I could'nt focus on it..I just could'nt. Perhaps most people can easily forget about their problems when they step out the dooor and put on a happy face. I CAN'T! I can't fake happiness no matter how hard I try. I geuss you could see this as a flaw. I don't give a fuck anymore..it's just who I am. The way I see it is it means I don't wanna deal with other people's bullshit an have stupid ass fights every fucking day. I want to live in peace and quiet! Is that too much to ask for? Is it much to ask for to not be insulted at home? To be abused?
Just this morning Mr.Nice-Guy (sarcasm) started screeching about how I left dirty dishes (I was gonna wash but not with him around to say nice things as I did it) and he said such sweet nothings such as I'm a bloodsucker. I know it's taken awhile for me to get y shit together but he has a huge share in the blame for that. Believe me I DON'T want to live in Toronto especially not with him. But I've had no choice due to the shitty financial situation...yeah, fuck the recession. If it was up to me I would have my own apartment in Vancouver by now. But life has'nt gone right for me as always. If anything good comes out of all this bullshit, it'll be the extra motivation to get the hell outta here ASAP. Wish me luck.

Who Watches the Cupcakes?

Awwww... Are they the sweetest couple ever? Indeed they are! It's Harley Quinn and Joker, the cupcake version.

Yup, just to prove I'm a big fucking nerd I made these cupcakes based on DC comicbook characters! Don't sue me DC as you can see here, I'm just a crazy fan!

Close up of the Wathmen cupcakes. Top left is Dr.Manhattan, bloody Smiley Face and at the bottom centre is Rorshach! I must add my oven is broken at the moment...it's been like the entire fucking month! Damn! I really miss baking...it's one of the only things I can truly enjoy in the middle of winter. Hope it gets fixed soon before I really go bananas...

Toronto makes me sick

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So disgusted with the local "scene" in Toronto. I'm so fucking bored and sick of the few people that are into the same kinda music I am. I don't why they're involved though because they nothing but pose and act like their shit does'nt stink. The only people who were actually getting shit done (like putting on shows and DJing parties) packed it in and aren't doing it anymore. Mainly because it was just a couple who got divorced so no more rockabilly or psychobilly shows in this town. It fucking sucks and it's driving me crazy!!
I don't understand why everyone has to have the same shitty taste..all there is the indie rock bands, top 40 dance clubs or hip hop...that is it! There's nothing to do if you have different tastes in music and lifestyle. It's really pathetic. For all the talk that we have here about Toronto being "a world class city" you really don't SEE it anywhere. Action speaks louder then words!! I wish the dumb motherfuckers who claim to be fans of the music would realize that!I really wish I had the energy to organize shows but I don't anymore. I know that I won't get a good response in this backwater town. I know that the so-called "fans" won't support the local scene becuase my name is not as well known to them as their buddies. Too bad they're all so useless and can't do shit to improve the scene. Oh yeah and the racism and neo-nazism does'nt fucking help!I can't wait to move FAR, FAR AWAY from here!!
I'm so disappointed by everyone I met, by their snobby attitude toward me when they had NO reason to be snobby because they themselves have'nt accomplished anything! And I know they're into this lifestyle for all WRONG reasons..because they could'nt make it with the in-crowd at the Tegan and Sara show. It's not because they have a genuine passion and love for the music and life. It's just really a sad state of affairs and I can't wait to be living far away from it. I don't think it could be worse anywhere else in terms of this type of scene.