So fucking tired right now...both literally and in every other fucking way. I feel like I need to sleep another 10 hours. But I can't because I'll start thinking about all my fucked up problems. Mainly the asshole who lives in the same house that I do. Yes, my mom's boyfriend Humberto..I've written about this dickhead before becuase he's always providing problems in my life. How nice.
I don't know what to do anymore..I had a job interview today and I royally fucked that up because I could'nt concetrate. I could'nt focus on it..I just could'nt. Perhaps most people can easily forget about their problems when they step out the dooor and put on a happy face. I CAN'T! I can't fake happiness no matter how hard I try. I geuss you could see this as a flaw. I don't give a fuck anymore..it's just who I am. The way I see it is it means I don't wanna deal with other people's bullshit an have stupid ass fights every fucking day. I want to live in peace and quiet! Is that too much to ask for? Is it much to ask for to not be insulted at home? To be abused?
Just this morning Mr.Nice-Guy (sarcasm) started screeching about how I left dirty dishes (I was gonna wash but not with him around to say nice things as I did it) and he said such sweet nothings such as I'm a bloodsucker. I know it's taken awhile for me to get y shit together but he has a huge share in the blame for that. Believe me I DON'T want to live in Toronto especially not with him. But I've had no choice due to the shitty financial situation...yeah, fuck the recession. If it was up to me I would have my own apartment in Vancouver by now. But life has'nt gone right for me as always. If anything good comes out of all this bullshit, it'll be the extra motivation to get the hell outta here ASAP. Wish me luck.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Who Watches the Cupcakes?
Awwww... Are they the sweetest couple ever? Indeed they are! It's Harley Quinn and Joker, the cupcake version.
Yup, just to prove I'm a big fucking nerd I made these cupcakes based on DC comicbook characters! Don't sue me DC as you can see here, I'm just a crazy fan!
Close up of the Wathmen cupcakes. Top left is Dr.Manhattan, bloody Smiley Face and at the bottom centre is Rorshach! I must add my oven is broken at the moment...it's been like the entire fucking month! Damn! I really miss baking...it's one of the only things I can truly enjoy in the middle of winter. Hope it gets fixed soon before I really go bananas...Sunday, January 17, 2010
Toronto makes me sick
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So disgusted with the local "scene" in Toronto. I'm so fucking bored and sick of the few people that are into the same kinda music I am. I don't why they're involved though because they nothing but pose and act like their shit does'nt stink. The only people who were actually getting shit done (like putting on shows and DJing parties) packed it in and aren't doing it anymore. Mainly because it was just a couple who got divorced so no more rockabilly or psychobilly shows in this town. It fucking sucks and it's driving me crazy!!
I don't understand why everyone has to have the same shitty taste..all there is the indie rock bands, top 40 dance clubs or hip hop...that is it! There's nothing to do if you have different tastes in music and lifestyle. It's really pathetic. For all the talk that we have here about Toronto being "a world class city" you really don't SEE it anywhere. Action speaks louder then words!! I wish the dumb motherfuckers who claim to be fans of the music would realize that!I really wish I had the energy to organize shows but I don't anymore. I know that I won't get a good response in this backwater town. I know that the so-called "fans" won't support the local scene becuase my name is not as well known to them as their buddies. Too bad they're all so useless and can't do shit to improve the scene. Oh yeah and the racism and neo-nazism does'nt fucking help!I can't wait to move FAR, FAR AWAY from here!!
I'm so disappointed by everyone I met, by their snobby attitude toward me when they had NO reason to be snobby because they themselves have'nt accomplished anything! And I know they're into this lifestyle for all WRONG reasons..because they could'nt make it with the in-crowd at the Tegan and Sara show. It's not because they have a genuine passion and love for the music and life. It's just really a sad state of affairs and I can't wait to be living far away from it. I don't think it could be worse anywhere else in terms of this type of scene.
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So disgusted with the local "scene" in Toronto. I'm so fucking bored and sick of the few people that are into the same kinda music I am. I don't why they're involved though because they nothing but pose and act like their shit does'nt stink. The only people who were actually getting shit done (like putting on shows and DJing parties) packed it in and aren't doing it anymore. Mainly because it was just a couple who got divorced so no more rockabilly or psychobilly shows in this town. It fucking sucks and it's driving me crazy!!
I don't understand why everyone has to have the same shitty taste..all there is the indie rock bands, top 40 dance clubs or hip hop...that is it! There's nothing to do if you have different tastes in music and lifestyle. It's really pathetic. For all the talk that we have here about Toronto being "a world class city" you really don't SEE it anywhere. Action speaks louder then words!! I wish the dumb motherfuckers who claim to be fans of the music would realize that!I really wish I had the energy to organize shows but I don't anymore. I know that I won't get a good response in this backwater town. I know that the so-called "fans" won't support the local scene becuase my name is not as well known to them as their buddies. Too bad they're all so useless and can't do shit to improve the scene. Oh yeah and the racism and neo-nazism does'nt fucking help!I can't wait to move FAR, FAR AWAY from here!!
I'm so disappointed by everyone I met, by their snobby attitude toward me when they had NO reason to be snobby because they themselves have'nt accomplished anything! And I know they're into this lifestyle for all WRONG reasons..because they could'nt make it with the in-crowd at the Tegan and Sara show. It's not because they have a genuine passion and love for the music and life. It's just really a sad state of affairs and I can't wait to be living far away from it. I don't think it could be worse anywhere else in terms of this type of scene.
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