Old Morons

2009 may just be one of the worst years ever for me. It just garbage...I spent most of the year unemployed and the drama at home just does'nt let up. In fact it just got worst this past weekend...with my mom's boyfriend being even more of an asshole then usual. He got drunk as usual and decided it would be a great fucking idea to get out the guitar and play some music AFTER we all went to bed!!! Fucking moron! He's in his fifties and he's acting like a fucking 20 year old! Smoking pot and being an inconsiderate dick by playing his shitty music really loudly at the 2 in the morning so that we all wake up and listen to it. I tried to get him to shut up by telling him to stop. That did'nt work..so then I pounded the floor. That get him all pissed off...poor fucking baby...he got interrupted from his amateur guitar playing. Of course this caused him to pick fights with my mom, me and my my brother all fucking night and the next day. He even thought it would be a good idea to storm into our rooms and ask who stomped the floor. He is such a fucking dickhead. But what pisses me off most is that just a couple of hours before he was going on and on about how much he loves his "family" and he wanted to invite us all out to the movies the next day. Awwww...what a crock of shit! This is what I hate most about him..that he's ALL TALK AND NO ACTION. If you love someone then you RESPECT them!! You don't wake them up at 2 in the fucking morning when they're trtying to sleep! Is that so hard to understand? Is that too much to do? He talks so much about wanting a better world and "family" but he does NOTHING to make that happen. Guess he's never heard of be "the change you want to see." Geuss not...I hate people like this and there so many of them around here.

I promise myself right now that next year is going to be different. It HAS to be different, if I'm to go on living in this fucked up world. I will get a job and keep it, I will save up and I will pay off my debts. I will move FAR AWAY from Toronto and I will never come back! I need to do this and I fucking will. I feel sorry for my mom but I can't take this anymore! It's making me more crazy then I need to be! I just hope I NEVER have a relationship like this!